SOMETIMES…

I sit here
Pen in hand
Zeal at its brim
But my mind
A buzz of thoughts
None seeming
To settle
A web of
Randomness
A hill of
Distractions
A reef of
Crazy
Playing out

A fugitive
In my own
Mind
My own worst enemy
But
Most loyal companion
Some days,
Yesterday seems
1000 miles away
Other days,
It’s just a second away
How fast it catches up
Even when buried
In the middle of the sea
Those raging waves
Effortlessly
Unearthing it

Battles,
It’s fought
Wars,
It’s conquered
Darkness,
It’s illuminated
Nonetheless,
This pit
Still remains
Wide open
Hollowing out
All the gains
Decomposing them
Into a compost

The cogs slowly
Depleting energy
The wheel ultimately
Losing traction
Tremendously
Getting sucked
Into this chasm
Of murky
Memories
That lurk
In the depths
Of this
Scarring ordeal…

ONLY YOU…

Cause such an uproar of emotions
Within my self
Your character quite the cocktail
That I drink myself to a stupor for
Never has lunacy had so much clarity
Getting me high
On this,
Aggravating rush
Gratifying lush
Mollifying stash
Rousing crush

Making me wander
Having me lost
Igniting my senses
Extinguish my wants
Starving my fears
Satisfying my pride
Your ease over me
Absolutely,
Incomprehensible…

My heart entangled
My soul smitten
My spirit defeated
My will weakened
How you flow in my veins
Corrupting every vessel
Enriching every cell
Harrowing into every bone
Owning me
Possessing me
Quivering my being

This bondage
Domineering
My submission
Masochistic
Cuffed in
Suspended on
Tied up
I,
Revel in it
Ironically,
Loving it…
How could I?

 

COMPOSED MESS…

You keep
Collapsing within
Yourself
With every
Waking moment
Your centre
Liquefying
Sucking the
Energy cells
Diligently
Orbiting it
An annihilation
Probable
If effort
Is not
Perpetuated
Towards
Its mitigation

Your mind
Running on
A frenzy
Constantly
Propelling itself
Into a
Whirlpool
Ultimately
Disconnecting itself
From reality
Stuck in a loop
Of
Existential probes
And
Mutating doubts
All interlinked
To the
Very existence
Of life itself

Your facade
Perfect
That smile
Ingenious
Your demeanor
Going to great lengths
In upholding
The shattered pieces
That lie within
They gleam,
They reflect;
You gloom,
You refract

Scorching inside
With all this
Emotions
That need
Extinguishing
Acting invincible
While literally
Every bit of
Your existence
Is shredding to pieces
Losing sleep
Since,
Mare world
Is too gruesome
Reality,
Profoundly unbearable
Which realm,
Could harbor
A weary soul
Like yours?

THE NIGHT CONTEST…

Am sitting under the stars
Taking in all this beauty
Stricken by,
The allure of its vastness
If not…
Promise of sempiternal brightness
Its twinkles synced with my pulse
A reminder that I’m made of stardust
As are they…
Chips from the same block
Cut from the same cloth
Merely,
Children of this universe

In the horizon…
The city lights,
Struggle to keep up
With the competition
Excelling in nothing more
Than polluting this perfection
That the night sky
Brings forth
Try as they may…
Their endeavors
Do little to edge it out
Too frail illuminations
Too futile expectations
Simply,
Artificially incapacitated

Bewildered by,
Natural order
In its raw,
Primitive form
The energy flowing within me
Fueled by this spark
Of galaxy dust
My soul etched
On this
Captivating
Sense of unity
With the night
My profound
Lover…

COSMIC BEING…

The universe was in awe of her
Stars flowed in her veins
Galaxies swirled around her
The moon craved her presence
Making the sun envious of her
Her beauty,
A black hole
Sucking all in
Leaving them relishing,
Bound
To its intensity

As she strode
Blissfully,
The cosmos
Aligned itself
To her step
The ocean
Gracefully bowing
To her serenity
The earth
Inevitably giving in
To her will
The atmosphere
Reluctantly heating up
To her existence
Try as she may
To keep it all within
She was
Tragically exquisite…

The universe
Looked goddamn gorgeous
On her
A goddess
Meekly
Hidden in a
Human soul
Oblivious to her
Sway to
This world
There is something
Breathtaking about
Such a being
Cosmic,
Is all she could be…

A FIRST…

Tension is building

Within this body,

As jitters are scampering

In light of these shivers,

Meek expressions

Colluding with passion

Of a long overdue

Mission…

 

A first step

Into the light…

Blinding it is

For a child of the dark,

Who has been daring enough

To enter the limelight…

For despite the chill of the night,

The company of the moon and the stars

 Has always been a sweet haven…

 

This is,

But a prequel

Into the pieces

To be shared

Jotting down I begin

For an audience

I hope to dazzle…